Monday, May 23, 2005

The person who love

The guy who love you , if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.

The guy who love you, can't tell you the reason why he love you. he only knew that, in his eyes,you are the only one

The guy who love you, seldom praise you , but in his heart, you are the best, only he know it

The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if you din't reply his message but others, because he cares.

The guy who love you , Only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart , the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you , will remember every word u said , even its accidentally. and he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who love you, will not give any promise that easily, because they don't want to break the promise, they want you to believe him and they want to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much, because they already plan it for you,he want to give u the best life in the future, he want to give you a suprise, belive him that he can do it.

The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect. but he will carry your ludgage and ask you " why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you, when you are mad, and when you finished, he will said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier. with smile.

The boy who love you, don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours, if you ask him why he call that late, he will said, when you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works.

The boy who love you, always call you little girl, but everytime he want to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy bear, but he will always put the bear you gift him at his bed.

The guy who love you, while quarelling, he will apologize uncontrollably, althought you are the one who's wrong, and later, he will sent a message to you with " baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself "

The guy who love you, while really miss you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you stupidly under your apartment.but he never knows , what he bought is daisy, but doesn't matter, because in his heart, that's roses.

I really miss YOU

Week 12

Week 12 of my study!! Week 13 of my stay in Australia.. but i still miss Singapore, JB a lot!! or rather, i should say i miss my friends and families!! It's so true that I never know how much I LOVE THEM until i am not with them~~~~~ I really need some new friends, some new entertainment, some new stuff to add spices into my life..

The fact that this surrounding loneliness is not good in the sense i just cant focus on my studies, i flirt with every girl i talk to.. haa.. bad bad.. Really trying hard to study.. focus simply on study.. but social life are equally important i guess!! and i m really missing a big big part of it..

What a weekend i really spend.. actually did not really do much.. but somehow listen to a lot of things.. Continuously, 2 friends told me about LOVE problem, then another told me about FAMILY problem.. The fact that they are so close to me, i really worried about them.. I can't do anything about it.. i just hope everything went well for them~~ I don't know whether i am a good listener or not, but i hope what i tell them will be useful..

Everytime i listen to others' problem, i relate to what has happen to me.. Seems like I have been doing that all the times.. and of course, there are things that are not really right, either from ownself or others, else where will the problems be coming from? You never know it's ur mistake when u are not looking at it.. Thatz why i always try to look at things from outsider view.. It benefits me, cool me down, settle myself on the road of rationing.. You go through it, you grow.. You escape it, you never learn the lesson.

Recently really like to swim.. I am not a good swimmer, but i do enjoy the time swimming.. makes me forgot certain problems while i try to concentrate on my strokes (else i will be choked by the chlorinised water!!) hee.. It is really comfortable to stay in the pool.. but my wound on my finger doesn't seems to be healing.. think really got infected.. shit.. anyone know how to cure it? sien..

Working my way up the stairs will allowed me to see the never ending end of the staircase.. mm.. hope there's something good that will happen to me.. Discipline should be the key... Cheers all.. Take care! and finally, a problem is not a problem if it cannot be solved~~~~ by ENGINEER ANT

Thursday, May 19, 2005

too much bad thing influencing me...

I really dont have much determination!! Must find a way out.. If my concentration is lousy, then i must do some other things to overcome that.. too playful..
mmm.. regarding previous post, guys, plz treat it as something stupid.. read then forget!! i m just too bored!!
well, there are certain things that i cant post it right up here.. i need to do some soul searching.. sometimes things just happen like this.. i really dunno how to handle.. especially with girls.. somebody teach me..
2 choices will hang myself.. i know it better than others.. so, aih.. rather not talk about it..
mmm.. recently having mood swing.. but not bad one.. always laughing a lot.. then suddenly temper come, but for awhile then i will there laughing and dancing again.. frens here keep saying i kena struck by lightning... mmmm...
but i prefer this way!! haa.. i prefer to called this my peak.. the stage of forgetting my own!! then everything just fall in place!! hee.. i always got this luck.. hope it will maintain!! Happy Go Lucky!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

It's bloody cold!!!

hooooo... the weather is so so so cold... i have never experience this coldness before... to date, i think this is the coldest day since i came to Sydney... buey tahan ah!! it's winter, then the continuous raining for 4 days makes the temperature dip until a new low... the forecast say it's only 14 degree but i believe it's much lower.. my limbs are all cold.. dunno whether i can continue taking this anymore!! SUN!!! come out plzzzzzzz....

this morning was really getting pissed off.. by a girl! a girl i once loved.. and i think the most, at least i think so.. we are quite close.. but somehow, the way she talked to me recently.. mm.. i dunno i am giving her that feeling that i am such a jerk or wat? keep getting scold by her.. maybe i gotta be more serious when talking to her.. thatz how i always talk to girls.. y should i change? Fuck! for 2 long years i been trying to get close to her.. thinking of that, i m really.... dunno how to describe!! i think i will use more vulgar language...

Isn't the day b4 i came here, everything seems to be ok? we were happily chatting away, then went for a boat ride.. how good would it be if time just stop there! or this real physical distance is getting to her? but i know, she's been telling me that we are just friends.. we can only be friends.. so what the fuck is happening now? i just don't wish to think about it anymore about her.. but why would she affected my mood so much.. i m being too sensitive? thatz wat she said.. i don't care.. and i don't bliv.. should i call her? or should i not?

by the way, i m really trying to stop flirting around.. even using my mouth.. stop all the sweet talking.. thatz the problem that has always been with me.. not giving any sense of security to the girls.. and now i want to give it to that one and only one.. i don want anymore failure of courtship!! though it's a very big distance.. if i m bill gates!!

this is a really messy entry.. dunno anyone would understand about this or not... arhhhh.... oh, yeah! i saw rainbowsss today!! 2!! side by side.. one is so clear that i can roughly see 10 layers or more!! really love it.. too bad i cant capture it.. it is so soothing.. smooth out everything.. calm me down a lot.. y ppl grew up, yet losing sense of righteousness, smile with evil minds, grew only with selfishness.. is this the real world? i m more satisfied with the cyber, the virtual reality.. aih~~

what should i put here?

I know it's been a long time since i blog.. but now, i think it's the usual.. a new song.. kwang hui intro me this song.. very very nice.. my mood is being affected by something happen in the morning.. keep wondering is the song telling me watz the girl thinking.. okla.. enough of tots.. let's enjoy the song.. maybe tonite i will blog

天空
歌手:蔡依林 | 作曲:衛斯理
填詞:衛斯理/小米 | 編曲:小安
*聽著自己的心跳 沒有規則的跳躍
 我安靜的在思考 並不想被誰打擾

 我們曾緊緊擁抱 卻又輕易地放掉
 那種感覺很微妙 該怎麼說才好

 時間分割成對角 停止你對我的好
 瓦解我們的依靠*

#在你離開之後的天空
 我像風箏尋一個夢
 雨後的天空 是否有放晴後的面容

 我靜靜的望著天空
 試著尋找失落的感動
 只能用笑容 期待著雨過天晴的彩虹#

REPEAT*##

在你離開之後的天空
我像風箏尋一個夢

我靜靜的望著天空
試著尋找失落的感動

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Look at this

Have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
Im beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?


You came and tell me with the tears in
your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
Its impossible for me to be your prince
charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you
loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to
shine and shimmer.


Im willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe,
Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.

Everything is our beautiful ending.

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sounds familiar? what about this?
忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局