em... i don't really know what should i write here.. at least for now, after talking to you.. did not really want to talk to u like that.. i hate myself talking like that.. but i don't really know what to say... maybe i just added someone to my 'to be forgotten' list or rather 'to be controlled when met up' list..

well, it's hard.. both are hard.. but i think it's easier to have control... afterall, i did learn some control algorithm in the project.. whether i should use DIP control, distance control.. that's another question.. after all, it's always easier.. and i have done it well the last time without those complicated yet effective algo.. haha...

actually don't really want you to see these words, or hear these things.. bcoz i know these will only add some miserable things to ur life... life is already hard enough on you.. but i must tell u that, i will learn to keep a smiling face when i think of u, heard of u or even met with u the next time.. just to tell u i know what to do, and i will take care of myself..

maybe i don have the chance to give u a plantation full of roses as promise,
but i hope ur life is always full of the most beautiful flowers in the world..
maybe i don have the chance to dance with u as i said,
but i hope u are having the most graceful dance with ur love one..
maybe i don have the chance to hold ur hands as i wished,
but i hope u are in good hands, by him...

i wish u good, i wish u e best.. adios..

When you rearrange the letters...

DORMITORY--DIRTY ROOM
PRESBYTERIAN--BEST IN PRAYER
DESPERATION--A ROPE ENDS IT
GEORGE BUSH--HE BUGS GORE
THE MORSE CODE--HERE COME DOTS
SLOT MACHINES--CASH LOST IN ME
ANIMOSITY--IS NO AMITY
MOTHER-IN-LAW--WOMAN HITLER
SNOOZE ALARMS--ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S
A DECIMAL POINT--IM A DOT IN PLACE
THE EARTHQUAKES--THAT QUEER SHAKE
ELEVEN PLUS TWO--TWELVE PLUS ONE

AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:
PRESIDENT CLINTON OF THE USA:
(With no letters left over and using each letter>only once):
TO COPULATE HE FINDS INTERNS

my memories are failing.. need to do a reformat.. wahahaha...
forget every single things.. especially things that are no use and only bug me.. haha..
wonder how is it like to lost memories.. maybe it help to cure my bad feelings!!! hee...

hope to go on the holidays soon!!

边走边爱

你出现像一盏灯不断舞动
闪过了我的瞳孔
醒过来原来没有什么霓虹
眼睛却有一点红
我们什么都不懂只知道短暂的笑容
是命运对我们善意的一场戏弄

爱上你是我最大的光荣平庸的生命从此不普通
告诉我多爱你虽然都没有用也有过一点点感动
两个人的终点只有两种不能够停下来只有流动
告诉我你发现没有了 我的天空不再相同

感情像一段旋律
不断煽动卡住了我的喉咙
讲不出该说我话想做的梦
只剩下耳边的风
我们什么都不懂只知道短暂的笑容
是命运对我们善意的一场戏弄

爱上你是我最大的光荣平庸的生命从此不普通
告诉我多爱你虽然都没有用也有过一点点感动
两个人的终点只有两种不能够停下来只有流动
告诉我你发现没有了 我的天空

爱上我是不是你的光荣这回忆是不是天衣无缝
告诉我多爱你虽然都没有用也有过一点点感动
我们的出路也只有两种不能够开心也只有心痛
答应我你会在找不到我的天空等待彩虹

咻咻咻


摄氏三十五度　我不再回顾 想你在他的怀里
应该幸福 我该祝福　冷得我想哭　不能哭

傻到什么程度　我心里有数 最后一口啤酒无所谓
酸或苦 能笑着送你走　就满足　很满足

看着天上乌云　满满　排山倒海 这夏季第一场雨
迎面而来 当结局不能改　我又何必躲开
没什么值得大惊小怪　就淋个痛快

听风　咻-咻-咻-嘲笑我的爱 就像感情的备胎
只在旁边喝采
你别问why why why 我一直都在
你有很好的未来　再痛我也说all right

当风　咻-咻-咻-送走我的爱 街边路灯一整排
低着头为谁默哀

是天在 cry cry cry 我的笑还在
有天他不能依赖　你怀念我外套口袋
告诉我　我随时 stand by
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Got this from a fren's blog.. hehe.. copycat!!
but this songs seems to suit me now..
every word seems to represent what is in my mind..
enjoy the songs.. by OCEAN

有付出就一定得承受后果.
I've been taking things too hard lately, and I think it strained the relationships between pple around me especially my families.
I should not have blame anyone else..
My sister told me that she hope that it's not pride that are making me this miserable. and i think she's right..
though i dunno where does this pride come in..
hmm... think think think.. i can find a way out...

Once, there was a girl who had to go for a operation. Her boyfriend and her blood type were in the same group... so he donated his blood so that she can continue with the operation...
After sometime, the 2 of them starts to have miscommunication and so as the days went by, the love between them starts to diminish.
And one day, the girlfriend asked for a breakup... so the guy was very angry and he retorted by saying "I WAnt my blood BAck~!!!"
Hence the girl went in of the toilet and came out, threw at him a bloody kotex pad and said "i'll pay u in monthly installments..."

don't look back, hope is in front

活着就得往前看吧！

沉重的压力让我无法呼吸，
弥漫在空气中的分子让我喘气。
我不知道是什么原因，
是学业，抑或是一个人。
突然觉得自己很脆弱，
弱的连呐喊都发不出声。
常常觉得孤立无助，
这种感觉何时消散？

i draw a line across, and i shall never pass over it again.. i deem what i have been doing so far is wrong..
and i don't wish to repeat it..
once i thought i could take anything, but this proved too much.. i cant breath, i cant scream.. i can only look forward and forget everything..

btw, i will stop for a while before i blog again.. there're things that need my immediate attention..
wish me well, wish me luck.. see ya..

I like you My Love

Je T'aime Mon Amour
Claudia Jung and Richard Clayderman

Verliebt ist,wenn man trotzdem weint
Das kommt bestimmt vom glücklich sein
Ich geb´mich ganz in deine Hand
Das Herz ist stärker als Verstand
Je t´aime mon amour
Ich küsse Dir die Augen zu
Alles was ich jetzt brauch,bist immer nur du

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn meine Zärtlichkeit erwacht
Spür´wie die Wärme deiner Haut
Das Eis in meiner Seele taut
Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn dein Gefühl mich hilflos macht
Es gibt für uns nur Liebe pur
Ce soir je t´aime mon amour

Bist mir ganz nah im Kerzenlicht
Und deine Augen streicheln mich
Ich lieg´in deinem Arm und sag´
was ich sonst nur zu denken wag´
Je t´aime mon amour

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht...

english translation
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Enamored is cries comes give is kiss am me if one nevertheless that certainly of that happily its I entirely
into your hand the heart more strongly than an intellect per t´aime mon amour I the eyes to everything what I
now custom always only you to you

The night has sense thaws has helplessly makes gives me Wieviele hours if my tendernesses awoken like the
warmth of your skin the ice in my soul Wieviele hours the night if your feeling it for us only dear pure c
sharps soir per t´aime mon amour

Are me very closely in the candles light and your eyes stroke lie me I in your arm and won to think venture´
what I otherwise only´ per t´aime mon amour

The night has Wieviele hours
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funny, the song is in german but the title is french

stay cool~~ thatz wat i have been telling myself.. no need to rush.. no need to panic.. i can do it.. i know i can.. there's no need to push myself so hard that i made a mess out of everything..

there are still a lot of thigns need to be done, and i can do it.. thatz wat i believe.. a stride by a stride, and b4 we know, we are already a long way ahead.. cheers~~

a lot of things have been going in my mind... my life is really in a mess..
what should i do and what do i want.. i really dunno...

information has been fed to me, non stop.

let me have a piece of mind... pls.. silent.....