Sorry... u are also important to me

A quick post b4 i go for my test... Having probability test in another 15 mins... though i have been studying for 2 days, my mind is not really focusing... reason? bcoz i was thinking of someone...
i dunno her position inside my heart... and i never fixed it... i am not brave enough to do that.. she maybe someone whom i met not long ago... but she is important to me... she told me lots of things.. trusted me.. bliv in me.. but i just din tell her bout anything of me... i don wish to hurt her.. but i now know that it's totally unfair to her.. just a sorry wont save the situation.. i have to be frank with her... :)

Low self esteem

Never been writing any meaningful post recently... only post a few songs.. really not feeling that good... life is a torture to me!!! i need to work harder..
was talking with an old fren yesterday.. and she says she finds that i got low self esteem.. being humble is good, but mine are just too much... extreme case... she's quite right.. i get emotional, mood swings a lot.. damn.. how unhealthy...
there's must be a change.. build up my social circle here in australia, exercise more, study more, play more...
how many a times have i talk about quit smoking? must have been too much.. think the first should be that.. the things that are scaring me is not that my lung is darkened by the nicotine, but rather then emotional swing that it brings... smoking are often associate with depression... n think i m having it... since i m not a determined person... my life really sucky now... din even have a motive..
think think think... work work work... play play play... stop stop stop....

歌曲：我懂了她
歌手：李圣杰 专辑：绝对痴心 手放开

李圣杰--我懂了她

我好想她
现在好吗
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎
那年的夏结束时说的话
一直不能放下
她说爱啊
爱很伟大
所以才能让她勇敢离开
当时的我
不明白为什么
直到时间白了头发
我懂了她
她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
她的眼里进了沙
她算了吧够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎
我懂了她
不要我为她牵挂
她说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情
她放了吧走了吧
不想要彼此受伤
她那么傻

情画

歌曲名称: 周杰伦&刘畊宏

作曲:周杰伦
作词:刘耕宏
主唱:刘耕宏
画上的油彩早已被风干
该怎么来完成我不明白
记忆的图案放在旧货摊
我担心会有谁懂的疼爱
雪白的礼服挂在那等待

淡淡的灰朦有一丝悲哀
教堂门已开而你却不在
玫瑰步道看不到末端

我孤单我不安
思绪被封住了口
黑夜却还是不罢手
强颜欢笑背后
在暗淡中摸索
我祈祷只愿你听得到
从分开到现在
我过的我在习惯
伤痛却依然在扩散
时间不听使唤
为回忆上了锁
这段情我已放不开

这段情我放不开

淡淡的灰朦有一丝悲哀
教堂门已开而你却不在
玫瑰步道看不到末端

我孤单我不安
思绪被封住了口
黑夜却还是不罢手
强颜欢笑背後
在暗淡中摸索
我祈祷只愿你听得到
从分开到现在
我过的我在习惯
伤痛却依然在扩散
时间不听使唤
为回忆上了锁
这段情我已放不开
这段情我放不开

歌曲：那个女孩对我说
歌手：黄义达 专辑：专属密码

心很空天很大云很重我很孤单却赶不走
捧着她的名字她的喜怒哀乐往前走多久了
一个人心中只有一个宝贝久了之后她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手凝固成为寂寞往回看有什么
那女孩对我说说我保护她的梦说这个世界对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我但是她并不晓得遍体鳞伤的我一天也没再爱过
那女孩对我说说我是一个小偷偷她的回忆塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由只想背着她的梦一步步向前走她给的永远不重

一个人心中只有一个宝贝久了之后她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手凝固成为寂寞往回看有什么
那女孩对我说说我保护她的梦说这个世界对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我但是她并不晓得遍体鳞伤的我一天也没再爱过
那女孩对我说说我是一个小偷偷她的回忆塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由只想背着她的梦一步步向前走她给的永远不重

那女孩对我说保护她的梦说这个世界对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我但是她并不晓得遍体鳞伤的我一天也没再爱过
那女孩对我说说我是一个小偷偷她的回忆塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由只想背着她的梦一步步向前走她给的永远不重

I miss you, my families

Woke up by a dream, I saw my parents.  I miss them and the feelings of being with them.  It is one thing that I truly miss.  Sometimes I just can’t stand the fact that I am so far away from them now.  There are a lot of things out of my grasp, and I don’t like that feeling.  Some people said that growing up let’s you own more and more things, things that you like.  To me, now is the process of losing, losing things that you care for.  Another 3 months I will be going back.  Hope it come sooner.  Keep reminding of myself the things that I need now is get on with life here and strive for the best.  Life is about cherishing things around you at the moment.  I can’t afford to lose anymore; it will certainly hit me so hard that I can’t take anymore.  Please, help me.